especially not a genius

Felt good about myself for about two hours, now I’m sad and confused and over-thinking and being dumb. I thought it wasn’t going to bother me but clearly it is. I just fail to understand how I can have an amazing semester at grad school, do better than I expected grades-wise, get a fantastic job, and still beat myself up over something where I don’t think I did anything wrong or could have changed the circumstances. 

Also I think mostly I’m tired and didn’t sleep last night and instead of being cold and getting sadder I should try to pack and think about being home with Megan and superhero clothes and baking and seeing my family and feeling proud of myself again.